Thursday, June 24, 2010

Random Post

OK! So now I am in Bangalore with a job and a decent pay to feed my insides, few amazing people here who make me feel at home, my closest of friends in touch with me, a beautiful city to live in(cant wait to explore it)! SO what more to ask for? Everything is right there. Its beautiful with lots of opportunities and hopes and dreams. So what to wait for?
Practically everything I wished for has come true. But you see I am personally not fond of the way this stupid human mind works. It constantly needs something to munch on. And so when everything is perfect like how it is right now, it will dig up what it chewed up just to ruminate and see if there is anymore juice to yeild out! So it (in this case my mind) will dig up the most irrelevant topics and ponder and wonder and think and analyse and scrutinize and kill it! Like chew it so very much you cant even use it to burn your gas!
So currently I havent decided what to do with this mind of mine. I could trade it for some good photography on the weekend. Photography does the trick you know. It keeps my mind busy with pictures and the jinxed activity called 'thinking' is used to only see actually look is more appropriate. So off with my camera I shall be on the weekend to explore this beautiful garden city that I reside in :)
Happy clicking to me!

Tuesday, March 16, 2010

Dear camera...

I truly and honestly believe that I am the happiest when i am holding you and looking at the world through you . And when I say happy, it doesnt mean bringing just a smile on my face. It definitely deals with something deeper.
When I hold you I dont know anyone, I dont hear anyone. All I do and want to do is look. And I mean look not just see, LOOK. If I was a little more courageous, I would simply pick you up and leave. Just leave. I do not know where to. But leave. It would be just you, the world and I. We could face it now couldn't we? You are meant to face it and I am meant to be with you. I pray that day shows up real soon.
You are my hobby. I can proudly say I am good with you :D. 33 days to be precise, I havnt held you or for that matter even looked at you (excpt for once when I rechecked if you are still with me). Although i wish i could do that more often. Trust me it feels horrible. Horrible is not the word. Shameful it is. When I say I swear by a camera, i should sleep camera eat camera talk camera. But I dont. And I am sorry that i dont. Please dont give up on me ok? Believe me when I say "I love you". I do.
Happy resting :)

Wednesday, February 10, 2010

Happy happy happy

I am typing at this moment so i can freeze this feeling of awesomeness that i am feeling right now. So the next time I doubt my happiness all I have to do is read this post and feel the same awesomeness.
I am happy! :D

Friday, October 9, 2009

I wonder how it feels to belong.
Belong is a heavy emotion.
Forgive me for not having felt it.
But spare me for not possessing it.
It is an under rated but one of the most important emotion.

I wonder how it feels to belong.
Does it make you feel secure or do you still have the inhibitions of a being?
Does it drive away the little pangs of anxiety in your humongous body?
Does it stop the rapid eye movement when a tornado strikes your mind?
Does it reduce the number of expectations you make?

I really wonder how it feels to belong.
Give me a feeling
And I will feel it.
Throw me a mood
And I will be it.
Tell me something
And I will understand it.
Save me a miracle
And I will live it.

Wednesday, September 9, 2009

No title

This is what i do(always)
I click the option of new post.
There is a lot to write mind you, but i do not have the courage to type it down.
By then my thoughts are transformed into this ugly sort of blob entangled between reality and practicality.
These mere seconds on the clock change my creativity into nothingness.
Time is overpowering and I am weak.
Time is passing and I am still weak.
This place brings the worst out of me.
And I still like it.

Saturday, April 18, 2009

I am a happy person at heart...only an over reactive happy person.
I dont have any problems, i just create them.
I always think correct but mostly do wrong.
I know the correct answers to my questions but I don't like them!
I am open to changes but i do not think changes are open to me.
I do not hate few selected human beings... i loathe them.
I need to let go off somethings but damn am i am attractive or what!
I dont know why some 'i' in my blog are lower cap and some upper cap
I can read minds ....maybe not correctly
I am always analysing a human mind...i think it shows
I stare so much ...i wonder why am i not a genius yet.
I usually dont have conversations in this blog ...but as i said i am open to changes.

Why laugh when no laugh?

My blog url is one laugh and all is well. I think this url was created more or less like a motivational statement instead of an amusing factual statement about my life.
But eh! who am i kidding! Lets face it....this really isn't helping. I mean i am going no where in life right now neither professionaly nor personally. But i still laugh and have fun! Thanks to my url probably. Life could not get lonelier than this...or maybe it could(i am just over reacting) eh! But its ok. I am allowed that much vent it out in over reaction probably. :P

Tuesday, February 17, 2009

Vent out for no reason

I want to smash their head into a wall or something when they call a laptop "Lappy"! How difficult or "uncool" is it to say Laptop!

Sunday, December 21, 2008

i have an ugly secret hiding in the dungeons of my mind
i wish i could color it pink and no one would care
that would help me pretend like it was never there

it spreads its vicious wings far off till my heart
i think its playing a game, to see if i am smart
its not much all i need to do is think and be smart

or so i think!